At some point in their lives everyone will be faced with the prospect of their own mortality. Whether it be the death or illness of someone else, or a possible life experience of their own.
To an already hypercondriac person the word "biopsy" is never a good one. And to be honest, I doubt it is for anyone!
The words "to rule out anything sinister" also do not instill confidence in someone who already thinks the worst.
Although I usually lean towards anxiety anyway this time I have decided there really isnt much point! As if there is anything "sinister" its already there! Worrying and panic will not change it. Sadly! If either of these things did help I'd have cured the world of conditions by now!
But it does have you questioning your life. Is it all you thought it would be, do you really live everyday like its your last?! Have you done anything you had always dreamed you would do should god forbid the absolute worst happen. (you will get used to my drama queen ways of thinking!)
Who can live every day like its their last? Honestly? If you thought today was going to be the last day of your life ever would you have gone to work? Of course not! But can you live that way?? No! We'd never go to work for fear today was the end! ha! And wouldnt have any money to live never mind do the things we wanted to do before the end appears!
It makes you question what you would do if you were in fact really unwell. Would you suddenly start cramming in lots of plans of travels? or see family and friends more? Jump out of planes? Would you go to church more because you really havent dragged yourself out of bed many times recently on a Sunday figuring god knows where you are and that you're thinking of him while you stay in your nice warm duvet! Should you start showing up now in case you are soon to join him?
Does afterlife even exist?! Is there any concrete proof that scientists havent argued their way out of?
It seriously starts your mind buzzing around with a lot of crazy stuff! But maybe some of it we should think about more often than if we get a shock to the system!x
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