Shopaholic annonymous for me soon!

I dont know about you guys but I have been a recovering shopaholic for quite a few years.

Well. I was!

I used to be out of CONTROL! I mean seriously out of control! I would not pay a bill so I could get a pair of shoes instead!

I would get paid on the Friday, the last Friday of the month (cuuuute) I would pay mama her rent and that would be IT! The rest? Clothes! Shoes, bags, belts, makeup! Whatever I could get my hands on! I would go out at 12pm on the dot, and I would return at 12.50pm barely able to open the office doors for all the shopping bags I had! And there was no better feeling in the world!

Ok I had no money to go out and wear the stuff I'd bought! Although I used to go anyway! But I just loved having new things. And go out in more than one outfit? Hell no! It just wouldn't happen! Not a chance!

Over the years it kind of got worse! And I got in debt and sadly lost my job! And couldn't pay it back.

I did eventually when i got a new job! But my credit was shot so no more cards or store cards, catalogues for me! Uh uh! That was it.

It was frustrating at times! When things came up like renting our first flat! And I needed a guarantor! But all in all it was probably a good thing I could only spend cash I had!

As the years passed by I guess my credit rating must have improved? I'm not sure how! I guess because I'd paid it and over time it fell off the bottom.

But I wasn't silly. I had credit cards but with reasonable limits and didnt exceed them.

Hmmmm

But that demon is still there girls! Dormant! Don't you believe its gone!

I decided to redecorate. Yes. A new single life needed a new single look! Out with the old and in with the sophisticated new! And it looks great! Admittedly! But of course the cards begin to creep out....slightly! Ok muchly!! But it was ok because I would pay it all off before the interest started.

Well I would have done, had I not booked a holiday of course! But that was ok....I would pay that off in time to go and save spending money.....that would have happened had I not needed "stuff" for holiday! And this is the problem now!! Everything I get "I need for holiday"

So I looked up sunglasses online...wow ok buy now pay 2011 that sounds great.....but do I want these or these? Or these or those?? Hmmm why not get three and send back the two you dont like? Only I didnt!! I liked them all!

Finished my exams....deserved a treat right?? And look at that....a shiny new TV with DVD player...I mean hey? My DVD player broke! I do need a new one?? And when I buy my house I will need a new TV for the living room? And so a new TV was purchased :/ ok it wasnt expensive but still!

And then an iPod dock to die for is in the sale, which is also an alarm clock with massive numnbers on it! So I dont need to put my glasses on in the night to see it. Love it, need it! It has two alarms for a couple! (If I ever become a couple!) and it has a week and weekend alarm! Amazing! Thats a bargain!

But I dont have an ipod???

Hmmm

But I do NEED one of those as Im going on holiday soon? You see the trouble it leads to!!!

Before you know it every card is completely maxed again! And I have my holiday to go on yet!

I'm lying if I say this compulsive behaviour has any chance of stopping before I'm back! As everything is either "for my holiday" or "I deserve if for studying" or "I've worked hard for this" etc!

The it will be "I'm on holiday" and "I'm sad that I'm back from holiday"

I need to get on the housing ladder! No more spending!!............after holiday! Come on! I'm pretty much spent out before I even get there! Yikes!